I need your help, my wonderful, international blog friends.
I keep Googling every little thing I can think of about hearing loss. Sometimes it’s useful: today I found a document that lists several things that happened to SillyBilly when he was born that often lead to hearing loss, which gives me a clue as to what might have caused it.
But then, that immediately brings up half-buried guilt over his birth: My decisions during pregnancy and labor caused this to happen! I permanently damaged his hearing! He’s got no jugular vein because of me! He has allergies and asthma thanks to me! I almost killed him!
I know my dear friend Karen once pointed out in her comment on another post that it’s pure hubris to feel this way. I can understand and agree with that quite rationally.
Now, how do I stop feeling that way?