Let’s see what’s rattling around in my brain this Michaelmas season:
I should be blogging more.
I should be making my native plant fairy book.
I should be working more hours on editing each day.
I should be keeping the house cleaner and neater.
I should be making Christmas present already.
I should be doing that artwork I’ve been thinking about for the last few weeks.
I should have done the reading I meant to do so that I could have written this year’s Michaelmas post.
I should be doing some sort, any sort, of regular inner work.
I’ve been very, very busy lately, yet I don’t feel like I’m getting enough done. And I know, these words like “should” and “could” and “enough” are traps, of my own making.
Eve (who created the lovely new header) has been writing about this recently, too. About having plans, goals, visions, even commitments for what to do and how to be. And then somehow, we go astray. We get busy, with only God knows what.
I seem to have lots of plans rattling around, and yet none of them get accomplished. Am I just not prioritizing correctly? Do I need to simplify something else in my life to make room and time? I’m a mom of two young kids, so there already I am busy much of the time. Plus I’m trying to work almost full time, take care of the household, and then there’s the idea I am pondering of getting a second BA. How am I going to get all of this done?
I do know that I spend a lot of time reading blogs when I could be doing these other things. I love all my blog friends and refuse to abandon them! But maybe my feed reader could use a little trim. I don’t really need to read about the 10 all-time greatest sci fi movie death scenes, now do I?
Sometimes I feel like a big anthroposophical faker, because I don’t do any meditative work. It’s like I read Lievegoed’s Battle for the Soul about the three spiritual streams of humanity, decided I wasn’t in the meditative stream, and gave up, because, hey–I’m doing practical work here! I’m a mom, so I’m immersing myself fully in the material world and manifesting spirit that way. Right.
What do you do to get it all done? Or how do you compromise with yourself to let some things slide?